ummm...not original

thought this was funny. the other girl in the waiting room and i were wearing the exact same outfit, just by chance. black leggings, white t-shirt, and black jacket. i guess thats what "sexy" translates to right now

ps. this audition was for an independent horror movie that they wouldn't release the script for as if it was some big secret even though i'd never heard of it and the movie has no money, but whatever, less work for me. at one point the director actually said to me "can you read this bonus scene, but DON'T BLOG ABOUT IT" and i was literally thinking "um, blog about what exactly...". but honestly the director wasn't as bad as the "reader" that they hired? i guess? who could HONESTLY barely speak english and was trying to make acting choices. it took all of my acting skills not to break character, laugh, and scream "are you fucking serious right now? is this a joke? what in gods name is going on here" i kept my cool though and the audition went well, so as usual i'll keep my fingers crossed.

yup, had to change in the car again

just another awkward waiting room

one thing i HATE, and i can confidently speak for all actors on this one, is when you can hear the actor before you auditioning. so basically you're sitting there trying to prepare and feel confident in your choices and you HEAR EVERYTHING the girl before you is saying which are, obviously, the exact same words you spent all night memorizing. now sometimes its kinda funny i'll admit, cause you can say to yourself "well she sure didn't get that joke", but other times it's just nerve wracking. this waiting room was particularly cold and weird. none of the girls talked to each other, you could hear everything going on in the room, and it was SUPER weird for me cause i got caught taking a picture of the "library voice" sign, and instead of the office person laughing at it, she seemed annoyed.

sometimes you know going in what type of experience you'll have

here's the funny picture i got caught taking. if you can't tell it says "library voices please!!!! casting in session!"

the walk of shame so to speak

long days of pilot season

sooooo, had to go back to my appointment that apparently was on monday but it turned out to be on tuesday, which was annoying because i had another audition at the other end of the city only an hour and a half afterwards

all

wasn't as slick as i'd hoped while changing in the car



but i did it



sad thing is, this is how i felt after all that...

happy martin luther king jr day

soooooo, martin luther king jr day is a bank holiday right? anyway, i think it is and thought it was a little strange to have an audition that day, but it's what my appointment sheet said, so i went. when i got there there was no pass at the gate for me, but i INSISTED i was right and fought to get on the lot until they finally let me on 20 minutes later.
this is what i found

least favorite part

gotta pay the price. sitting in rooms of beautiful girls is great motivation, but god does it suck

hair color

hair color

sometimes you'll walk into a waiting room and know instantly that you're "not right" for the part. this was one of those days. i was one of the only blonds there. it's difficult not to let this "get in your head" before walking into the room. i tried not to let it, but the audition wasn't great. mediocre at best i'd say.




this is how you know you didn't get it for sure.

The Beginning of Pilot Season

its early january and the fun is just about to start. and by fun i mean the evil emotional roller-coaster that you are strapped on to and have no control over at all...YAY!!!! it's pilot season!!!! pilot season is the first 3 or so months of the year during which almost all the new shows for every network is cast. what that means for us actors is that we have to read a script most likely every single night, memorize lines, make choices for our character and put it all out there hoping to get a job. this is what all auditioning is, but the problem with pilot season is there is no break. it's constant. day in and day out, and the most control you've got as an actor is basically whatever control you think crossing your fingers might give you. basically its awesome. really, really, really awesome. here i am in the waiting room for a show that i actually really liked and think has some real potential. the casting office called me in for 3 separate characters. i chemistry read with the guys that were cast for 2 of them and this is on the day of my FIFTH, count them FIFTH time in for this show

this is about 15 minutes in..

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this is the same waiting room an hour and 15 minutes in...

now as you can see, there are all kinds of beautiful, skinny girls around you at all times. it never seizes to amaze me just how many of them there are. i've been doing this for 10 years and i'd say that you get used to the same probably 50 faces or so...but this day i saw a few new ones. i can't really tell you what sitting in a quiet room for an hour and 45 minutes does to you, but maybe this will help...

keep your fingers crossed. i should hear about it soon.

PS, there was a name actress that went in right after me for a GUEST STAR...unbelievable. i sometimes feel its more likely to get electrocuted by a fallen cable line while driving in your car than it is to get a pilot. oh wait that happened to me (while driving from an audition to a meeting with a director for a movie, neither of which i booked).

My Least Favorite Part

soooo, as you may have picked up on in my last video i am not one of those blessed and i mean BLESSED girls who doesn't have to work her ass off at the gym in order to stay thin. for me it is a daily mental battle to not only work out, but to avoid eating all the foods that make me happy. you know the ones, chips, pizza, ice cream, french fries, cheese, pasta, mexican food, chinese food, frozen yogurt, chocolate, butter, bread, any thing at a sushi restaurant other than sashimi, any salad-dressing other than balsamic vinegar and olive oil, salt, WINE...basically anything that may excite you to eat. since i love food so much though, i usually end up eating things i'm not supposed to and have to kick my own ass at the gym every day. while i'm working out, i usually think of whatever i ate the night before. and by think about i mean i imagine the the food as a little villain saying "haha, you're fat!" and as i sweat he's getting punched in the face until i lose that pound and he finally dies. strange i know, but whatever keeps me going right? i think the culprit for the double chin may have been the glass of wine (or 3) i had the night before...that or the bag of pistachios i ate with it.

A Cold and Lonely Room

this is my first video ever taken. it's starts with "hey baby" because originally i was making these videos to send to friends while bored in waiting rooms at auditions. this audition actually ended up going REALLY well and i was super excited about it because the movie/potential pilot shot in eastern europe. my dream has always been to shoot something out of the country.
I never let myself get my hopes up,(as you'll see in these little videos) but the night after this audition i let myself live in fantasy land for a little while. mentally packed my bags, and got to escape the emotional torture of pilot season. the way the casting people sounded and the feedback was such, that it really didn't feel that far off letting myself go there, but low and behold there was ONE person on the project who "didn't respond". those are words as a working actor with no name you hear A LOT...like ALL THE TIME.